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so I want her I love her ... she's all I want ...
however females throw themselves at me ... i don't want them I'm content with who I have, well had she broke up with me seee we have two different definitions of cheating ... me : as long as you don't physically touch or kiss her : anything that would consider disrespect or out of line ... i see her views and how she feels ... all I want is for us to be happy and build I want her to see although yes she has forgiven me in the pass .. this time it's different and it's not because she's leaving it's because i want us ... and I want this to work I'm willing to delete my Facebook and instagram and have no outside commnacation from new disrespectful women and anyone who disrespects our relationship if cut from commnaction .... i just want us spend time laugh cuddle watch movies taken each other's interest to heart.. be each other's best fiend and laugh everyday ... cause we beat negitvive thoughts and thing bad trying to temp us is a no no so keep it away ... I want to just grow ... with her This was supposed to. Be our year ..
superhuman powers over, emotion so, genuine....you Just have to understand ... I think different .. and at times I definitely think wrong willing to change ways For us to be More then friends .. never want to be exes again ... See.. there it is... the negative thoughts ... see, I'm not in this for nothing ... I'm willing to do more ... do, so you... so we can be stress free, and more, spend more time happy just you & me ... no interruptions.. no disappointments any time You peak.. .. damn there no need ... I'm not willing to do this shit for nothing .., I love .. us ... me & U-n-I-t-y Is what I'm after ... happily ever ever Hit me on my 2way..... 2way communications open ... Better on my part we live .. tonight ... let's be each other's .... Differences... from the day we first met ... We was our special one's it's not fiction it's surely. A fact ... my whole life change.. you changed it .. helping me grow and see becoming a better man for you ... aggressive.. you called it .. Pinned up emotion ...flooded Always knew it would be you ... my special someone .... So glad God has blessed me ... God has blessed we ... vision to see 20/15 Love has trails & tribulations Just like a beautiful rose has thrones.... it's time to clip the The thrones .. how deep is your love ?? Let's get serious .. my heart just dropped mind if I ask a serious of questions ? Do you still love me? Do you love we? Are we not worth the time we've put in .. how deep is your love can I fall in ? In the heat of passion .. you feeling kinda crazy . ... I know it takes time what ever you decides I'll always be with you ... I'm sorry and I love you 1/4/2017 went to new botherhood Tuesday .....
i must say seeing old faces brought back all kinda memories .. of my old M/C days ... still cant remember everything, or everyone but it's a lot that floods my brain... the people the atmosphere ... still the same minus a few people .. however, it's about the love in the M/C world the commodity ... chicken wings and steak hoogies ... some spots known for their shimp but everyone has something ... its all about the love & support one another brings .. you may not be blood in the M/C world nonetheless them colors bleed... the same passion!!!! as everyone else in your conglomerate knows ... rules and regulations Known as the bi laws ... Keysssss
See let me tell you what bothers me ... 1.. it's not my injury ... I'm alive, breathing, shitting and eating Still able to drive well you get it, I'm living Buffalo, Literally!!!! I'm proof that ... you can live with in a dream and a dream Within Your subconscious, a Subliminal imagination, unaware however, fixated By the sedatives body trapped.. Mind still racing !!!! It's up to me to survive .. Still, unaware .. Don't wanna get trapped in LIMBO, MOLLY LIFE TIME Do I live or do I die? Went though 5, critical levels When I fought for my life, To survive my commas It's levels to this shit.... In real life over 5+ times was I fighting for my REAL life!!! had to choose to survive .... Like, the gravid mother, in her seventh month, Admitted for emergency C-section .... She's a fighter ... in The fight of their life's See to many today .... take life for granted ... Every little mistake, is the end of the world .. it's just spilled milk.. a solvable mishap, is your worst day ever .. You've, exerted so much negative, emotional energy, Into negative darkness ... feeding that darkness, stress, anxiety & depression Feeling like your only outcome ...is ____________!!!! have you ever wondered why, you are so doubtful? Ever Wondered, Why ?? Why dark Cloud's Full of Negative precipitation, & tears always follow you, flooding your life... causing strife Look A round you ?? Misery loves company ... So you love SHARE, you sad stories Anyone ... everywhere!! Always wanna be the worst one !!! When you share .... instead of Focusing A positive, Solution.... & believing in yourself, wait..... do you, believe, in... yourself .... ?? Believe in more better positive outcome, Not gonna happen over night .. or every time . Let everyone laugh .. learn to have vision, drive .. dedication, & find motivation..... plus.. my God !!!!! Works in mysterious ways if you don't believe, in YOURSELF ... then by all means work on that, I'll help you cause few will !! But 90% !!!!!! Will take advantage To their advantage it's just what they do ... Say it : I will no longer be a victim of my environment ... No longer a product of my society ... no longer Will I ... simply move with the masses I'm no pawn that's what THEY !!!! want me to wear, say & do I will research learn & study for myself .. Educate myself, self evaluate myself.. always be honest & REAL with myself .....& others., The mission? You ask ? To grow evolve, I will learn & understand, if still wrong?? take full responsibility & accountability for my wrongs, learning from my mishaps, to find The origin to why it is I felt the feelings I felt When I didn't understand ....why ?? I did what did ..wrong Now that I Know I am strong !!! Knowledge is key They will never take These keys away from Me.. Honey Wesley actually that's not true the Bible talks about men and women .... Listen once again understand I've been through more then saw has put people through so I see life different ... God gave you .. me n us life ... to be exert negative energy is only giving in to the devil ... just think about it ???? Scripturally, what would yahweh, say???? Allah ?? My God ? Your God ...? I'm asking you do you honestly know??? Or did you rely on what you've heard, man say for years no so??? Jesus died for our sins ... we all sin. Let he or she who hadn't sin cast the stone ... talk all the mess you want BUT!!!!! don't bring GOD!!! into it though.... not having your FACTS analytically correct to back your thought up ... Read Galatians 3:26-3:29 Monday thoughts
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Feelings like this ... I never wanna reminisce!!!! God knows my intentions always was Pure!! Yet to her My actions Illrelevant .... cant just have a good night ... The way i do things she'll never understand !!! Once, the way I even, Closed a chapter so we can Chase our dreams ... My process.. see, The way I do things To her discuss.. Sometimes I wish I'd just die !!!! so she can finally be happy with out me ... move on!! We're To far in To be having this same conversation... So many times the same Results feeling overwhelmed Like we're just gonna COEXIST... Cause we're both Emotionally... physically drained... Can't stand feeling like this... Emotional roller coaster I Knows No lies When I say... All I ever wanted is her for the rest of life ... daily.. her and I bff.. till the end When I say I wanted her to become my wife .. My mind think slow ....at times ... my actions my not show, My GOALS !!! Trust All I'm think about ... is provideing a way for us ... & yes.... She's always on my mind ... yet, These feelings The Emotions She dare not wanna reminisce... Remembering Nothing but the bad times as if the Good times, Meant nothing aka His True love all seems illrelevant !!! Keep it real .... Only thing keep her grounded is she has no where else to go & her Niece and nephew Are involved..... No matter what I do my methods always questionable I bill comton ... you..!!! You my, Skokie.. it's just something special about you, What are you? The way you make me feel Is surreal, No not joke.. When you not making me feel upset for moments .. Im exploring creative ways of thinking or learning .... Just don't get me ?? You don't see .... You, Intensive the vivid as Appel of life Something like a turbo late at night ... intake... as I exhale Breath slow.... something like the girl I like !!!! You beyond alright ... if I had to let you go... Titanic ship was sinking Slow... call me Jack Dawson I'd never ever... ever Let you go .. Sirwilliam hardy |
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